ex's

Does it go back to the timeless necessity or wanting what we can't have? Why is it that as soon as your life falls back into place that one ex comes back into it. You know the one that it took ages to get over. Some how they always pop back into the picture right when you have something good. they start with their late night phone calls, that no matter how hard you try to resist or pretend you dont care you just have to answer. They begin by telling you how much they miss you or how wrong they were to let you go and even if it is the booze talking, for some reason it sends a shock wave of delight through your body. Then begins the teasing them and acting as if you couldn't give a shit that they called. This is of course a game we play because they called us there for giving us the power to pretend we are above and beyond them. But truthfully deep down we like those calls and we like hearing that someone messed up. It makes us feel good to know we are wanted, especially by an ex who broke our heart. it feels so good in fact that we begin to look forward to those calls and even though we have someone who really loves us and whom we would never want to lose we begin to fantasize about what it would be like to actually meet up with them again. Of course just for a drink to show them what they missed out on. It's amazing how just when you are to the point of not caring whether or not you ever see them again they pop up and send you for another loop. It's almost as if those certain ex's have sonar that picks up when you are losing interest, warning them not to let you slip away or else there will be one less person in the world wanting them. Of course they can't have that because as mentioned earlier everyone wants to be wanted. It just feels good.